How I broke the cycle of codependency
About seven years ago, I found myself sitting in the sofa in my living room, unable to move, feeling completely helpless. Long story short, I was heartbroken from having invested a big chunk of myself into a relationship with an addict. And as a result of repeatedly not heading the deafening warning bells, I had tricked myself into believing that this person could provide me with the nurture that I needed, eventually, if I just loved them well enough. And as I sat there, as the walls of my illusion came crashing down, leaving me freezing cold and naked to the bone, all I wanted to do was cry for my mom to pick me up. Except Mom was long gone and I had no more brilliant solutions to keep me afloat on that big river in Egypt. It was over.
As I sat there, feeling the excruciating magnitude of my loneliness, without moving to fix it, the feeling intensified to the point where I thought I was going to die. And as I let myself fully embrace the death of me in that moment, a shift happened. That very moment is when I learned to nurture myself from the inside. I got up from the sofa, sat down by the grand piano and began to sing, “It’s gonna be alright you know, little angel. It’s gonna be alright you know, little angel of mine.” I finished the whole song in less than half and hour, and to this day, it is one of my favorite tunes.
Little Angel to the Movies
Little Angel was just picked up to be in the final scene going into the end credits in a movie called, Next of Kin, and can also be found on the Venus Envy CD. I have enclosed the song for your listening pleasure and the lyrics, so you can sing along:)
Love and Blessings, Caroline
Little Angel by Caroline Waters (Get the CD)
It’s gonna be alright, you know, little angel
It’s gonna be alright, you know, little angel of mine
I’ll hold you close and I’ll keep you warm
Cause I love you so, little angel of mine
No one’s gonna hurt you now, little angel
No one’s gonna hurt you now, little angel of mine
I’m gonna take care of you, little angel
I’m gonna take care of you, little angel of mine
I’ll be your mom and I’ll keep you from harm
Till the end of time, little angel of mine
You’ll never be alone again, little angel
You’ll never be alone again, little angel of mine
It’s gonna be alright, you know, little angel
It’s gonna be alright, you know, little angel of mine
I’ll keep you safe and I’ll let you cry
Then I’ll see you fly, little angel of mine
It’s gonna be alright, you know, little angel
It’s gonna be alright, you know, little angel of mine
Caroline Waters' Vocal Freedom Blog 
Caroline, Can we download you on iTunes?! Love you music!
A fan,
Beth Barany
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Yes, very soon, I am in the process of making all the songs from my CDs available for download. In the mean time, you can purchase the CDs directly from my website. Thanks for the feedback!
Love, Caroline
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Love your voice/music. A true artist. Look forward to hearing more. 🙂
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So you’re saying that we have to be the ones who are responsible for our own happiness? That we are the ones who need to take care of that sad inner child?
I think that may be where I need to start…
Can you suggest any resources?
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Yes, I believe that we all have a great responsibility and amazing ability to tend to our own happiness, and that nurturing the child within is a vital part of that process.
Resources, hmm. Personally, I love all the Sark play books. I also recommend doing Julia Cameron’s book, The Artist Way, which is a wonderful twelve week course in nurturing the artist within, which essentially is the same as the child within:) For me, making space to allow my own creative expression without judgment or restriction has been amazingly helpful in dealing with sadness and grief in connection with those times where I have felt hurt or suppressed in any way.
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