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Letting Go

It’s not easy to let go. Not for people like me. I am so practiced at fixing things, maintaining equilibrium no matter what, taking the higher road and reaching for the good in everyone and everything. These are useful habits, but sometimes they keep us at bay.

Sometimes anger is good, as it propel us forward and help us take action. I have found it extremely helpful to acknowledge the contrasts that clarify my desire. Accepting people, things and events for whom and what they are, without trying to fix, change, belittle or make excuses for them, can release a tremendous amount of energy, – energy that is otherwise bound up in denial or repression.

I have found that, when I allow this anger or dismay to simply be what it is, an uncomfortable feeling, a gage, if you will, that helps clarify my preferences… When I allow this feeling without resistance, it changes form quite quickly. Resisting my feelings, resisting change is what causes me to feel pain. When I let myself go with the flow and allow the gage that is my emotional meter to simply clarify my objective, I can rise to my own occasion with surprising speed and elegance.

This year is a year of tremendous change for me, personally and professionally. I am letting go, physically and emotionally, of people, places and things that have held me at bay. And in doing so, I am stepping up to my own plate in a way I have never done before. By letting go of that which no longer serves my creative vision I am opening my heart and soul to new dimensions of being. It’s very exciting!

The most effective way for me to let go of people, places and things are by acknowledging the awesome gift of their being in my life. I am eternally grateful for each and every experience that has led me to this place in time. No matter how joyous or sad, not matter how pleasurable or painful. Each contrasting experience have served to clarify my vision and enhanced my dream building.

As I mentioned in the beginning of this blog post, it is not easy for people like me to let go. As a matter of fact, it has taken me half a lifetime to get to this point of feeling okay with it. But I can tell you this much. The joy I am feeling at the core of my being as a result of my resolution to let go of the old and embrace the new is beyond words. I highly recommend it!

Here’s to celebrating the Now, by fearlessly releasing the ghosts of the past and embracing what is to come with no holds bar!

Love, Blessings and Cheers from Caroline

A Most Wonderful Audience

This coming week, I’ll be driving across Norway, all the way to the west coast, where I’ll be climbing a famous plateau called Preikestolen (Pulpit Rock) with my sweetheart before headlining the opening of Gay Pride in Stavanger.

This is a big deal,especially since the Norwegian premiere of my new musical thriller, Finding Venus (På Hengende Håret) is less than two weeks away.

Butterfiles are congregating in the stomach region with increasing might as each day come to a close. Rehearsals are more focused, marketing efforts are intensifying and my ability to relax and enjoy is in danger of becoming obsolete. This is a warning sign…

In order for me to produce a most delicious evening of music and story, for the purpose of opening hearts and promoting understanding and healing, I personally need to let myself receive the love that exists in each moment. If I let myself be stressed, I defeat the very purpose of what I have set out to do.

I worry about people not showing up. I worry about not breaking even. I worry about mean critics and I worry that I will not be able to sustain the fullness of the dream that I have set in motion. These are thoughts that serve no other purpose than to feed the illusion called doubt.

What would happen if I let go of these worries? Would I miss them? Would I do a lesser job without them? Or would I feel myself rise to the occasion, embrace the love that surrounds me and step into the dream with the fullness of my being? I won’t know for sure unless I give it a go, will I?

There’s a saying that it’s not possible to feel fear and love at the same time. So, in order to succeed, I must choose love every step of the way. It’s not easy, believe me, I know! I face fear almost every day, especially when there is something really important at stake, like telling my life story in words, music and play for the first time in my home town. So, here it is:

I hereby let go of my worries! I hereby invite all the love that surrounds me, all positive energies, fun filled interactions and A Most Wonderful Audience to fill these next two weeks with so much joy I won’t know what to do with myself. There! I feel much better already!

I am so excited for the show! I am thrilled for the beautiful and amazing actors and musicians who have put their hearts and souls into making it their own! I am grateful for the steady love and support of my friends and family on both continents! And, I am perhaps most excited for little Caroline, the little girl in me, who finally gets to sing her song and be heard, not just for being a good little girl, but for being the complex little love bucket that she is.

Please join me as I take the plunge on the 12th and 16th of September, at the Norwegian Premiere of Finding Venus (På Hengende Håret). Tickets are available at Billettservice.no.

Love and Blessings, Caroline