This coming week, I’ll be driving across Norway, all the way to the west coast, where I’ll be climbing a famous plateau called Preikestolen (Pulpit Rock) with my sweetheart before headlining the opening of Gay Pride in Stavanger.
This is a big deal,especially since the Norwegian premiere of my new musical thriller, Finding Venus (På Hengende Håret) is less than two weeks away.
Butterfiles are congregating in the stomach region with increasing might as each day come to a close. Rehearsals are more focused, marketing efforts are intensifying and my ability to relax and enjoy is in danger of becoming obsolete. This is a warning sign…
In order for me to produce a most delicious evening of music and story, for the purpose of opening hearts and promoting understanding and healing, I personally need to let myself receive the love that exists in each moment. If I let myself be stressed, I defeat the very purpose of what I have set out to do.
I worry about people not showing up. I worry about not breaking even. I worry about mean critics and I worry that I will not be able to sustain the fullness of the dream that I have set in motion. These are thoughts that serve no other purpose than to feed the illusion called doubt.
What would happen if I let go of these worries? Would I miss them? Would I do a lesser job without them? Or would I feel myself rise to the occasion, embrace the love that surrounds me and step into the dream with the fullness of my being? I won’t know for sure unless I give it a go, will I?
There’s a saying that it’s not possible to feel fear and love at the same time. So, in order to succeed, I must choose love every step of the way. It’s not easy, believe me, I know! I face fear almost every day, especially when there is something really important at stake, like telling my life story in words, music and play for the first time in my home town. So, here it is:
I hereby let go of my worries! I hereby invite all the love that surrounds me, all positive energies, fun filled interactions and A Most Wonderful Audience to fill these next two weeks with so much joy I won’t know what to do with myself. There! I feel much better already!
I am so excited for the show! I am thrilled for the beautiful and amazing actors and musicians who have put their hearts and souls into making it their own! I am grateful for the steady love and support of my friends and family on both continents! And, I am perhaps most excited for little Caroline, the little girl in me, who finally gets to sing her song and be heard, not just for being a good little girl, but for being the complex little love bucket that she is.
Please join me as I take the plunge on the 12th and 16th of September, at the Norwegian Premiere of Finding Venus (På Hengende Håret). Tickets are available at Billettservice.no.
Love and Blessings, Caroline