Category Archives: Love and romance

Finding Venus – Come Hell or High Waters

I’m not exactly sure why it took me so long to find the courage to share this particular story. It’s not like I haven’t shared at all, but my sharing has mostly consisted of blippets of life and carefully selected soundbites to illustrate an emotional journey that has left many questions unanswered.

Stilling the voices of fear
It has taken almost ten years to finish the process of writing this memoir. The writing itself didn’t take that long, but stilling the voices of fear and arriving at a point of feeling worthy of sharing it took lots and lots of processing.

Since I grew up as a child star and got ample validation for my performance, sharing myself in musical and theatrical ways have been much easier than sharing myself as a person. In many ways, I have hidden behind my artist image, carefully selecting the pieces that had “promotional value” for public display.

At this point in my career, all I really care about is to share my truth and being in ways that will empower and build bridges of love, tolerance and understanding. And, in order to do that, I need to be as real and honest as I possibly can.

Finding Venus – Come Hell or High Waters is the true story of how I managed to recover and come back to life after the near death accident that left me with temporary brain damage, amnesia and enhanced psychic abilities.

During this time, Stefanie Stroh, the only person I felt any kind of connection to after the accident, disappeared in the Nevada desert in the same area the notorious serial killer Tommy Lynn Sells operated. My search for her was instrumental in bringing me back to a sense of Self and purpose.

Many layers
This story has many layers: In addition to describing the transformational journey of healing from amnesia and post traumatic stress, it is also a testimonial to how I found my identity as a human being, how I dared to come out of the closet as a sexual being and how I managed to embrace life from a whole new perspective.

Since I also have written songs that go hand in glove with this particular journey, Finding Venus – Come Hell or High Waters is also being transformed into a 90-minute musical stage performance, which I am currently preparing to showcase in Oslo, New York and Los Angeles. I am terrified, to tell you the truth, of putting myself out there is this manner. And, at the same time, I am excited to finally let the cat out of the bag and share this powerful adventure of transformation and healing.

Consciousness expanding activities
If you or anyone you know have ever experienced trauma to the brain, loss of identity, amnesia, performance pressure, challenges in relationship to parental opinions, enhanced psychic abilities, paranormal activity, post traumatic stress or other consciousness expanding activities, you might find this musical particularly intriguing, comforting and empowering.

Sharing the love
It is my desire to share the love that I experienced throughout this powerful healing transformation in ways that will entertain, humor, enlighten, delight and give hope for the future.

Please stay tuned for show dates and more info at www.carolinewaters.com

Here’s a taste:)

Nurturing the Child Within

How I broke the cycle of codependency

About seven years ago, I found myself sitting in the sofa in my living room, unable to move, feeling completely helpless. Long story short, I was heartbroken from having invested a big chunk of myself into a relationship with an addict. And as a result of repeatedly not heading the deafening warning bells, I had tricked myself into believing that this person could provide me with the nurture that I needed, eventually, if I just loved them well enough. And as I sat there, as the walls of my illusion came crashing down, leaving me freezing cold and naked to the bone, all I wanted to do was cry for my mom to pick me up. Except Mom was long gone and I had no more brilliant solutions to keep me afloat on that big river in Egypt. It was over.

As I sat there, feeling the excruciating magnitude of my loneliness, without moving to fix it, the feeling intensified to the point where I thought I was going to die. And as I let myself fully embrace the death of me in that moment, a shift happened. That very moment is when I learned to nurture myself from the inside. I got up from the sofa, sat down by the grand piano and began to sing, “It’s gonna be alright you know, little angel. It’s gonna be alright you know, little angel of mine.” I finished the whole song in less than half and hour, and to this day, it is one of my favorite tunes.

Little Angel to the Movies

Little Angel was just picked up to be in the final scene going into the end credits in a movie called, Next of Kin, and can also be found on the Venus Envy CD. I have enclosed the song for your listening pleasure and the lyrics, so you can sing along:)

Love and Blessings, Caroline

Little Angel by Caroline Waters (Get the CD)

It’s gonna be alright, you know, little angel
It’s gonna be alright, you know, little angel of mine

I’ll hold you close and I’ll keep you warm
Cause I love you so, little angel of mine

No one’s gonna hurt you now, little angel
No one’s gonna hurt you now, little angel of mine
I’m gonna take care of you, little angel
I’m gonna take care of you, little angel of mine

I’ll be your mom and I’ll keep you from harm
Till the end of time, little angel of mine

You’ll never be alone again, little angel
You’ll never be alone again, little angel of mine
It’s gonna be alright, you know, little angel
It’s gonna be alright, you know, little angel of mine

I’ll keep you safe and I’ll let you cry
Then I’ll see you fly, little angel of mine

It’s gonna be alright, you know, little angel
It’s gonna be alright, you know, little angel of mine

Being Venus

The secret to attracting a new lover:

Have you ever felt like no matter how hard you try to accomplish something new, you seem to run in the same circles, attract the same kind of people and make all the same mistakes? It is the strangest thing… You think you have learned from your experience, have a solid vision of what you want to achieve and have a pretty good attitude about moving forward. And then, before you now it, you get slammed with some annoying mirror image from the past.

The experts tell us that our conscious experience is primarily governed by the subconscious mind. This means that we need to reprogram our subconscious mind to cause real changes in our lives. This can be done in many different ways. One way is to keep thinking better feeling thoughts about any given subject and thus gradually move up the vibrational scale until we meet our goals. The better we feel about what we want to accomplish, the more in line we are, energetically, with our desires, the more likely we are to succeed.

The most commonly known method to speed up this process is hypnotherapy. Another, not as well known but, in my opinion, equally effective method is through the power of music. Since we are, essentially, seeking to change the vibration of our thought patterns, music, being one of the purest forms of vibration, is an excellent way to powerfully affect our subconscious. Think about the songs that put you in a really good mood and makes you feel like you can accomplish anything. For many of us, it feels even more amazing to sing and dance along with those songs. Imagine how you would feel if you were to write a song about exactly what you want to attract, and to sing and dance that song until you become the song itself. How would that make you feel? Pretty good, yes?:)

Venus Envy

How I came to embody Venus, the Goddess of Love

I had just given an intimate concert at the Water Lily Cafe in Topanga Canyon, when a dear friend approached me. She said, “Caroline, how come almost all of your songs are about unrequited love? I sense this incredible longing in you for a romantic partner. Are you happy?” I didn’t know what to say at first. Was I happy? I was working a lot, for sure, and feeling a tremendous amount of satisfaction in all my creative endeavors. But it was also true that I was feeling an intense yearning for a partner. “I’m not sure how to go about attracting a new lover,” I said. “It seems like I keep meeting people who are emotionally unavailable in one way or another.” My friend laughed. “And that surprises you?” she said. “Just listen to the words you are singing. You are a powerful creator, Caroline, and seem to be manifesting exactly what your songs are about. Why don’t you write some new material, about what you really want, and write as if it is already a reality? I bet you’re gonna notice a big shift.”

That same evening, I wrote the song that was not only going to bring me my new lover, but also an amazing record producer named Greg Matheson, a great new solo album and a license deal that landed me on a compilation CD with Dianna Krall, Norah Jones and Natalie Cole. As you may have already guessed from the headline, here’s the song I’m talking about: I Am Venus

Embodying Venus has been the most powerful decision I have made in my life and career. As a result of identifying with the Goddess of Love, I have come to love and appreciate myself, life itself and every single being I encounter with greater joy and intensity than I ever could imagine. My perspective of the world at large has also shifted dramatically, as it has become clear to me how we create our own reality and how easy it is to make it better. I just love how this stuff works! Try it sometime, if you haven’t already:)

Love and Blessings, Caroline

PS. If you’d like to sing along with I Am Venus, you can click on the link above, and here are the lyrics:

I AM VENUS (CD available at carolinewaters.com)

I am Venus, I am love, I am sugar from above

I am temptation, gratification, mystification and revelation of all

I am Venus, I am love, I am sugar from above

I am sensation, unification, the inspiration and destination of all

I am milk, I am honey, I am better than your money

I am milk, I am honey, I am

I am milk, I am honey, I am better than your money

I am milk, I am honey, I am, I am

I am Venus, I am love, I am sugar from above

I am temptation, gratification, mystification and destination of all

I am heat and desire, I am dance in the fire

I am an ocean, always in motion, I am devotion, uh, a locomotion of all

I am milk, I am honey, I am better than your money

I am milk, I am honey, I am

I am milk, I am honey, I am better than your money

I am milk, I am honey, I am, I am